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deepest sigh
23 December 2019 02:55so i've planned out the vague outline, scene by scene, of the rest of this salmon dean fic and let me tell you i am beleaguered. it's looking to be about 12 more scenes, which doesn't sound horrible until i realize that my scenes usually range from 5k to 10k and that means i'm looking at at the very LEAST 60k more words haha.
this is just fantastic. how did i ever think i could finish this thing before the end of the year? with all my trips i have going on, it would be a miracle to have it even half way done. i started this thing back in the second weekend of november and have been prolifically writing like a maniac every weekend since then except for the most recent one where i was in colorado. so basically after all this effort, i still won't see it done by january. this is, mind you, namely because i have prebooked trips and i'm not cancelling europe just to work on this fic but dammit, it really had to be this way didn't it?
how was i to know that i'd be writing like crazy in the tail end of 2019? certainly not the WES who booked these trips that's for sure, not to mention the holidays don't make it any easier let me tell you. my trip to europe doesn't end until january 11 i believe so that'll be quite some time i won't be writing. sure i'll be having the whole life experience thing but damn if i don't want to finish this fic and wipe my hands of it.
at this rate, i'll be lucky to write even a couple more scenes before europe. i would be grateful to even whittle it down to ten scenes left but that seems like a stretch too when i have work and writing is like crawling through glass because i have the impending deadlines of travel and christmas.
anyways, i'm starting to think a bit more realistically about my goals and the ways in which i somehow manage to procrastinate even while i'm actually writing. this means that i'll be lucky to finish this fic's first draft by the end of january to be honest which doesn't make me feel happy at all. i'll then have to go in and clean it up pretty because right now it's of about middling quality. then i'll have to run it through my beta reading sister for quality control and typos. and only then can it be posted.
optimistically though, i believe if i can finish it in january and give it the read through, i can get the first few chapters read and edited and start posting as i go along. i don't know why i want it posted asap, i guess because i really don't want to overlap with the supernatural finale because i know everyone will be too emotional to read my fic at that time and i'll be in venice anyways.
pray for me friends, i really hope i manage to see this one through to the end.
this is just fantastic. how did i ever think i could finish this thing before the end of the year? with all my trips i have going on, it would be a miracle to have it even half way done. i started this thing back in the second weekend of november and have been prolifically writing like a maniac every weekend since then except for the most recent one where i was in colorado. so basically after all this effort, i still won't see it done by january. this is, mind you, namely because i have prebooked trips and i'm not cancelling europe just to work on this fic but dammit, it really had to be this way didn't it?
how was i to know that i'd be writing like crazy in the tail end of 2019? certainly not the WES who booked these trips that's for sure, not to mention the holidays don't make it any easier let me tell you. my trip to europe doesn't end until january 11 i believe so that'll be quite some time i won't be writing. sure i'll be having the whole life experience thing but damn if i don't want to finish this fic and wipe my hands of it.
at this rate, i'll be lucky to write even a couple more scenes before europe. i would be grateful to even whittle it down to ten scenes left but that seems like a stretch too when i have work and writing is like crawling through glass because i have the impending deadlines of travel and christmas.
anyways, i'm starting to think a bit more realistically about my goals and the ways in which i somehow manage to procrastinate even while i'm actually writing. this means that i'll be lucky to finish this fic's first draft by the end of january to be honest which doesn't make me feel happy at all. i'll then have to go in and clean it up pretty because right now it's of about middling quality. then i'll have to run it through my beta reading sister for quality control and typos. and only then can it be posted.
optimistically though, i believe if i can finish it in january and give it the read through, i can get the first few chapters read and edited and start posting as i go along. i don't know why i want it posted asap, i guess because i really don't want to overlap with the supernatural finale because i know everyone will be too emotional to read my fic at that time and i'll be in venice anyways.
pray for me friends, i really hope i manage to see this one through to the end.
